Lazy

"Can you forgive me? I know it might sound crazy. But right now, my heart's a little lazy. Tired of opening up, tired of caring."- LeToya Luckett 

So I know that I have not paid enough attention to this blog, but I have been downright busy with Zeta, my family, my friends and my life.  Pretty much, I’ve been living.

Though as much as I’ve been doing my thing, I got asked a question recently that most girls more than likely answer differently.  The question: Why am I single?  The answer: I have not made establishing a relationship a priority as an adult.  Let’s just say the person asking the question was male and his reaction indicated he was a little taken aback.   

But it’s the truth.  Once I became single again almost nine years ago, I focused on my academics, my friends and establishing my first career.  That required a couple of moves and lots of time. In addition to that, I felt it was time for me to give back to the community so I volunteered for Big Brothers and Big Sisters. Then I decided to join the best sorority ever, Zeta Phi Beta Sorority, Inc.  And after that, I decided that it was time to switch careers.  That required a return to graduate school followed by a fellowship and another move.  Mind you, Zeta and my friends are still a great part of my life throughout all of this. And let’s not forget my family.

Now, there have been guys in my life during that time.  They pretty much could only get in where they fit in. And that story still holds true today.  After a long day, guys typically get the short end of the stick and I admit that.  But they are still not a priority for me.  I invest so much in other areas of my life, that I barely have the time.  And the areas that I do invest in, I’ve gotten great returns.  However, investments in guys and relationships are about as predictable as the stock market in these economic times.

Don’t get me wrong, I love being committed and loyal.

Except when it comes to men.